Tuesday 5th July
2:23pm So much has happened, I don’t know where to start. Video Jamie, Anna from circus and one of the new counselors Leith, were in a car accident last night. Jamie and Anna are dead and Leith’s in hospital with a broken neck. It’s been absolutely, unbelievably awful.
Today should have been a lazy day. All the other counselors were meant to be out, but this morning there were no buses to take them, which everyone thought was odd, but no one knew why. Earl and Bud weren’t at breakfast, but I didn’t think too much of it at the time. Then at around ten Earl announced over the loudspeaker that all the campers and counselors were to come immediately to an assembly at the Kennedy Theatre. I rounded up the kids and we went over – you could tell straight away something wasn’t right. All the head counselors, Earl and Bud were stood with stern, blank faces. It didn’t take long for the kids to shut up this time.
Earl: “There was a car accident last night.”
Just in that one sentence he had to keep stopping to catch his breath and bite his lip. He paused. Some of the kids had started whimpering and crying already.
Earl: “Anna and Jamie have died… Leith is in intensive care.”
He had to stop again. More kids were crying as they took in the news. You could see the counselors were trying to hold it together too.
Earl: “They were driving away from camp and there was a deer in the road. They swerved to avoid it… and hit a tree.”
He stopped, for an uncomfortably long time.
Earl: “I know a lot of you will be very upset. For the rest of the day a few of the shops will be running, but take your time to think about Anna, Jamie and Leith.”
By now a few of the kids were wailing. Bud had stepped up to stand next to Earl as he was obviously struggling.
Bud: “Talk to your counselors as much as you need – stay here if you want – and remember we’re here to help you.”
The meeting ended and Earl went straight back to his office, but the head counselors and Bud stayed behind. How could this happen at camp?
I took my campers back to the bunk and a few of them got in bed crying while others just lay staring at the ceiling. I didn’t really know how to react or what we were supposed to do.
I didn’t actually even know who Anna was, but apparently she’d been coming to camp for years as a camper and this was her first year as a counselor. The Mean Girls knew her well, so were really upset. I didn’t know Leith either. I tried to remember him standing up in front of everyone at the Independence Day celebrations as he did the skit for Scotland, but I can’t.
But I did know Jamie, and I can’t believe he’s gone. That’s it – I’ll never see him again. It’s crazy. He was so lovely and nice and from what I knew of him, such an amazing person. I only saw him yesterday, and now he’s dead. How can that happen?
8:12pm Rebecca said someone told her that Jamie had actually been drink driving and speeding and that the deer story is a cover up for the kids. She said she saw them speed into the camp at about midnight, do a 180, and go out again too. Other people are saying that he was racing someone else; I guess we’ll never know.
I knew them taking their cars to the GC and round the town was a bad idea. Being at camp with all the other counselors – even though I’ve never even spoke to some of them – you just feel a strong allegiance to each other. It’s such an intense situation that the other counselors start to feel like family. You kind of feel responsible for each other’s welfare, like you should’ve been looking after each other. I feel guilty for some reason.
I imagine them being hyper up at the GC and deciding it was a great idea to go for a spin to Winkworth, Jamie was probably showing off to Anna by jolting the steering wheel and going too fast. What the hell was he thinking? There were loads of people at the GC last night and usually about ten or so people go on to the guys house along the road for an after party, but last night it was just Jamie, Anna and Leith who went. If only there had been another lot of counselors going – they would have got there and when Jamie’s car didn’t arrive they would have raised the alarm. I feel so, so sorry for their families, they must be in total shock. You don’t say bye to your child leaving for summer camp and not expect to see them again.
9:15pm I’ve just seen Jamie’s camp girlfriend at the front office. She feels so guilty for not being there and not stopping him, she’s distraught. I can’t believe this. Some of the kids haven’t stopped crying, while I think others who didn’t really know them feel a bit weird as they don’t really know what to do with themselves.
11:16pm It’s pissed it down all day today. Everything about camp is grey and tragic. I rang mum and as soon as I heard her voice I started crying; I couldn’t get my words out. This wasn’t supposed to happen at camp. I had to sneak out to the portaloo earlier to cry as I didn’t want the kids to see me upset.
I’ve sat down with each of my campers individually to talk as some of them have known Anna all their camp lives. Rebecca is devastated – she was good friends with Anna from last year – so I just told her to look after herself and I’d help the kids. Although she’s now been face down in bed all day and I kind of need her to help.
I think a few people are just caught up in the drama of it all. I’m sure some of them are not actually upset about what’s happened, but just upset about the mood on camp. Zoe is one prime example. She’s been even more annoying than usual. After we came back from the Kennedy Theatre and Rebecca was crying in bed, I was trying to calm 12 dramatic teenagers down and she just fucked off to Winkworth for a restaurant dinner with Pip. Obviously when she got back I asked her where the hell she’d been:
Zoe: “It’s just so depressing on camp, I couldn’t hang around.”
What the fuck? Jamie had been filming a show for her so she’s decided he was her best friend and that for some reason she’s more important than all the other kids and counselors. She’s apparently the one who deserved to get out of camp. Zoe hasn’t helped with the kids one bit – she never even came to dinner with us when she got back. If Earl found out he’d go crazy. How can she be so selfish today? I’m pissed off at Pip too. These past few days I’ve thought she was wicked, but at times like these you show your true colours. Why do they think they can get off camp? Everyone’s in the same boat, we should be helping each other. Zoe’s actually just used the death of two people as a chance to bunk off. God, she’s just so shite, she’s really outdone herself this time with her purely selfish actions. I’m angry, but I need to stop thinking about her and concentrate on what’s important.
On a different note, Ben has been absolutely amazing today, so supportive and such a great listener. When something like this happens you really assess what’s important to you, and he is. I’ve only known him a week, but I really like him. A lot.